I've just joined and i'm hoping that someone can help me. I had my beloved 18 year old dog put to sleep just 4 days ago. I'm 6 months pregnant. Me and my ex boyfriend adopted him from the local dogs home back in 2002 and when we split up 4 years later I moved out with my dog. For several years after that it was just me and him, I took him almost everywhere with me, when I sat down he was on my lap within seconds and when I went on a night out he stayed at my parents for the night. My life revolved around him. A few years back I met someone and my first child came along and suddenly I had this newborn baby and my lovely dog was sort of pushed out and was no longer my priority, my son is 3 and a half years old now and in all this time my dog got older and has developed lots of symptoms of getting old. Sadly he got so frail and weak that I had to make the heartbreaking decision to do the best thing for him. Over the last year or so he has followed me around and been under my feel alot and i'm so busy most of the time that I would just tell him off and send him to his bed. So now not only am I absolutely devastated because i've lost my amazing dog but I feel so so guilty because 1, when my baby was born he was unintentionally pushed out and 2, I was too busy to give him cuddles and attention when he was looking for it and was probably not feeling well. Every time I think about it I burst into tears and when I start I cant stop as I feel so cruel.