I had to make the most hardest decision of my life Tuesday (12th November 2019). Lewis was my beautiful cocker spaniel who I'd had for nearly 13 years, I have no children and I centred my whole world around him. I would never have treated him any differently, I told him every day I loved him, he'd had a heart condition for over 3 years but I got him on the right medication and we soldiered on. He was a very happy boy, always loved his food, walks, cuddles and sleeping on my bed every night. For over 10 years it was just me and him until my partner came along, my partner loved him probably as much as I did (if that were possible). 2 weeks ago Lewis came down with a very nasty sickness bug it was awful to watch, I took him to the vets twice and they said it could be a sickness bug or a mass in his stomach. She told me I had to think about what I wanted to put him through (he was 14 as I'd had him as a rescue dog), anyway we tried anti sickness meds and injections and then he had very bad diarrhoea we tried to treat that also. Then he just started to go off his back legs so I took him to the vets Tuesday night and the vet said the kindest thing to do is let him go. So I held him until he had gone, my partner was there also, and my mom. I feel so lost, empty, sad and don't know I can go on without him. I have another dog who has lived with Lewis for 4 years, he's missing him as well. I loved Lewis more than life itself and don't know how to move forward, I feel like I can't. Please if anyone can give any advice I'd really really appreciate it.