Hello all and massive post alert. I haven't been a regular on here in years but I'm back and finding comfort in some of the lovely posts, and also help in moving forward while we prepare to welcome another dog into our lives. This site offered me so much advice years ago when we became the proud owners of our Dachshund, koji. He was so nervous when we first got him at 12 weeks old in October 2014. He took 2 days to come out of his crate and I won him round by hand feeding him and building his confidence around us. He used to stop outside the gate on walks because he didn't want to go out. Fast forward 12 months and he was happy go lucky, loved his walks and responded so well to training I could of walked him anywhere off lead had I have chose too. He remained wary of strangers but thats daxies for you! Unfortunately a week into December his back legs went suddenly and it was the dreaded Degenerative Disc Disease. We were referred to a vet surgeon the following morning and they operated that day. The surgery was a success and he was home in 2 days. We continued Physio 4 times a day, I had to empty his bladder for him 4 times a day, which I became a pro at! Then after a couple of days he seemed to go 'off'. He was lethargic and wasn't eating much and he lived for food. We phoned the vets and they said not to worry and it's most likely all the painkillers and advised to reduce them. Despite this the next day he was worse. He wouldn't even stand on his front legs and his eyes were glazed. He didn't even respond to anyone around him. So the vet surgeon told us to take him back up and they would check him out. The first vet was at a loss as to what was going on when she checked his abs. His temp was down and his front legs didn't respond to pain. She called in the head vet and it was all of a sudden an emergency. He queried Meningitis and got him admitted for emergency tests and treatment. We said goodbye and gave him a snuggle and a kiss before he went under aesthetic and stayed for a few hours while he had the investigations. Once he was stable we left. I phoned at 10:30pm to see how he was and he was comfortable. At 11:30 the surgeon phoned me and told me he'd just passed away. We are so devastated and the sudden loss. He was only 4. Our 7 year old and 2 year old miss him so much. He's left a massive hole in our lives. I feel I am babbling on here but I feel I needed to share with those who understand and have or are going through the grief process.