I not long ago posted in Rainbow Bridge. I lost my best friend, my life, my shadow around 2 weeks ago. He started to show difficulty peeing about 3 months ago which got progressively worse. Went backwards and forwards to the vet. In the last 2 days if his life I rushed him to the emergency vet as he'd stopped peeing altogether. The vet told me they'd rush him to a specialist where they'd clear any blockage in the urethra i.e stones or crystals. The following day I go to the specialist centre in Watford where they tell me it's adenocarcinoma and that there is little they can do. His urethra was completely blocked and they also diagnosed heart murmur. They offered me surgery to fit a drain and to try remove some of the cancer but they told me it would be cruel and hard on Jake. They recommended he was put to sleep which I went with. He passed away in my arms. He was a male, neutered Chihuahua who got a rare cancer that he shouldn't of been able to get. He was only 9!!!!??? I've been in the worst emotional state in my life. I feel ruined, destroyed, alone. I miss him so much I can't deal with life. I was hoping to find people who had similarly lost their dogs suddenly at a mid range age (not old). Jake was 9 but on average it's not uncommon for them to live to 15-20. Please any help would be appreciated. I've never felt so lost and heartbroken. Day and night of tears. I figure support from people who've been in a similar position might be best given the loss the age and the circumstances.