I feel so defeated. I have a 7 year old mongrel (german shepherd cross) who I rescued from Spain. When she arrived as a 4 month old we could tell she wasn’t “right”. With help from the vet we discovered that she has severe hip dysplasia in both hips and she’s autistic. She is virtually impossible to train as she has absolutely no desire to please or do as she is told. We went to multiple puppy classes (which she didn’t graduate one) then over the year’s spent triple figures on top behaviourists and trainers one to one, all of them tried and failed to help. Her main problems - * She is *extremely* reactive when she meets dogs. If she is off lead and she sees a dog in the distance, she will charge at them growling. She doesn’t hurt them when she gets to them (just runs round them growling) but by that point the owner and dog are terrified as she is a big dog and she looks like she is charging at them to attack. * On lead she is reactive too and tries to attack passing dogs/cyclists. I have to go off the path into bushes or a field if possible and get as far away as I can. If it’s a small path with nowhere to go then I stand at the side between her and the dog and try my best to control her. She wears a Halti to try and control her but she’ll still stand on her back legs snarling and barking to try and get to them. Often her claws rip my legs open, I often come home from a walk injured from her. * She growls at children and strangers. She doesn’t like strangers touching her which is difficult as she is cute and often people like to try to pet her. I just tell them not to now. Even people coming into the house, she sniffs them but if they try to touch her to say hi she will growl. Even if a young child is just walking past her ignoring her - she will growl. * She only has recall if she see’s me holding a treat and there are no other stimuli. When I call her name the first thing she does is look around to see why I am calling her and check if there is another dog somewhere, if so - she charges at the dog growling. * If we pass a dog in the car, she goes crazy barking and attacking the window until it’s out of sight. * In the garden she spends her time charging at the fence and barking at people passing. We’ve lived here for over 6 years and she still does this to our neighbours if they are in their garden. She gets 3 walks a day and up until Covid, she went to dodgy daycare twice a week so she has stimulus and lots of exercise and has been extremely well socialised. As a pup I spent hours socialising her in different environments and she was never amazing but never as bad as she is now. Daycare say there isn’t an issue but they are not a very honest company. She has 2 dog walkers who have the same issues with her that I do, thankfully they overlook it but I am expecting them to get to a point where they refuse to walk her. I frequently get abuse shouted at me on walks from people who’s she’s scared which always leaves me in tears. I’m now 19 weeks pregnant and have to keep her on the lead which is a shame as she can’t get the same run or sniff around but I can’t cope with the anxiety of having her off lead now. I’m also worried about how to control her as I get bigger and I do worry how she’ll be with a baby in the house given that she hates children. She is generally a bit better in the house, sleeps a lot (when not barking at passerby’s outside). However she hates being touched by even us, she would never sit beside us or voluntarily come near us. She chooses to stay in another room if we are in one room unless we are eating. Once we finish eating she leaves the room. It’s difficult to have a bond with a dog so aloof but we just accept this is the way she is. We’ve tried various techniques from the trainers we saw and nothing works as she has no desire to appease us. I love dogs but I will never have another one after her as the past 7 years with her have been a curse. A massive chunk of my pay check each month goes on her - paying her dog walks/daycare, supplements, food etc. We’ve kept her healthy and adapted to her strange ways to keep her happy and content but to the expense of my life/sanity and she’s getting worse. It used to be that it was sporadic her wanting to attack a dog/growling at someone but now it’s every single person we meet - there is inevitably a drama. We recently tried a herbal supplement to calm reactive dogs down and it made absolutely no difference.