My lovely cat Poppy died just before Christmas 2019 ( 21st). It was unexpected and has left me heartbroken. She had been unwell and we were going to take her to the vet that day, but when I got up early that morning I found her lying beside her bed. I am haunted by what I saw because she was lying on her side staring forward, she let out a low meow type sound and twitched her right leg. I thought she was trying to speak to me but noticed she was not breathing. She took an airless gasp then became still then did it again about 20 seconds later. I was in a panic and we lifted her onto a towel and rushed her to the emergency vet. She did not move or make a sound in the car, when we got to the vet it was clear she had gone. Her face had relaxed and she looked like a cheeky kitten. I have cried everyday for two weeks ( I am male) and feel I will never get over it. I also hate going to bed and have panic attacts/ flash backs to seeing her die. I had no idea I would be so badly affected, we did love her so much and I knew it would hurt but not this much. Coming home is horrible also and seeing her empty bed. I hope they go to a lovely place when they leave us.