On Monday we said goodbye to our lovely little boy Maxi, he was 13 today. It has been such a shock and my heart feels so broken. He had been fine, but Saturday morning we got up and he usually runs across the room for his morning cuddle, but he lay on his favourite footstool hardly lifting his head. We took him straight to the vets and thought some medicine and he would be right as rain again, the vet gave him anti sick injection and we bought him home with a further appointment for Sunday if he was no better. Later that day he perked up and had a little of his favourite fish, but it was like he was eating it to please me. Sunday morning came and he seemed a little perkier, but when we went to the vets she said she would have to take some bloods and phone us later, I still thought he would be fine. Later she phoned and said he was anemic and there was a problem with his liver and if he got worse to phone them and get him admitted, still I thought he'd going to be ok. He was purring and cuddling as usual he was just off his food. On Monday we got up and he ran across the room to greet me for his usual cuddles and I really thought he'd turned a corner. We took him to his appointment and they took more bloods and said his red blood cells were dropping rapidly and he could be bleeding internally so they were going to admit him overnight and put him on a drip. I came home thinking that would make him better, but 2 hours later they phoned and said he was to I'll to save and we should go and say goodbye. As I'm writing this tears are pouring down my face. We spent 1/2 hour with him cuddling and talking to him and all of the time he was purring until it was time to say goodbye, he went to sleep peacefully with his head in my husband's hands. I feel consumed with grief the pain is unbearable my heart is really broken. We called him our little one although he was a big ginger boy. He had a brother Paddy and I'm trying to give him all the love I can, he misses him and keeps looking and calling for him. The pain I'm feeling is so overwhelming and raw. He was our special little Maxi and will always be in our hearts.