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Johnathan Derrick 17/02/1965 - 13/07/2008

Discussion in 'General Chat' started by sequeena, Jul 13, 2009.

  1. sequeena

    sequeena PetForums VIP

    Apr 30, 2009
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    A year ago today my brother was taken away from me and my family in the cruelest way possible. He was stabbed once in the chest, and once in the temple all because he tried to stop a fight.

    My brother did not suffer a quick and easy death. He suffered major blood loss, his organs shut down one by one and he was pronounced brain dead on arrival to the hospital.

    John was a wonderful man. He would do anything for anyone. He was a man you truly respected and would not dare get on the wrong side of him. Even if he had only known you for ten minutes he would do his very best to help you if you were in trouble.

    He was the joker of the family and liked to think he was at a greek wedding when he was drunk, smashing plates and singing at the top of his voice.

    Though he and I lived hours away from each other, we made it a point to speak on the phone almost every single day. My last conversation with him, hours before he was stabbed ended in "I have to go now, so take care of yourself" "Don't worry, I always do".

    Waking up that Sunday morning I knew something was terribly wrong. My mother would not wake me unless the house was on fire - or someone had died. I cannot describe how I felt at that moment, only if you have lost a loved one to murder can you truly appreciate the emotions I went through.

    I went through the classic denial phase. Pretending nothing had happened I went to work the next day where I finally broke down. Even then it did not hit me what had happened to my dear brother, that realisation came to me in October 2008.

    My brother's body was not released for over two weeks and he had two autopsies performed on him. During that time I worked closely with Summerset Police and began planning his funeral.

    The day of his funeral arrived and I could not believe how many people were at the church. I didn't bother to count but there were so many that they could not fit inside the church; there must have been well over 200.

    We walked into Bob Marley's 3 Little Birds, his most favourite song in the world; YouTube - Bob Marley - Three Little Birds

    The service was wonderful even though I felt as though my heart was being forcefully ripped from my body. My cousin Stephen nephew was mistaken for my brother's son Louis which caused a few laughs and red faces all round.

    I tried my very hardest to be strong that day but it was so hard. A child should never die before its parents and seeing the heartache on my step father's face was horrific.

    In November 2008 the court case began. In January 2009 my brother's murderer was sentenced to 15 years in jail. Not enough in my eyes but enough for the man to never have a life again.

    This past year has been very tough on my family and me, and there have been times when I have wanted to chuck in the towel and be done with it, but I soldiered on. Time does not heal all wounds, but you do begin to lead a normal life again. It takes a long time and sometimes I break down, I give in and cry but afterwards I pick myself up, hold my head high and soldier on.

    I would like to remind you all of this poem;

    When was the last time you...
    Had a conversation
    With the moon?
    Or made a wish
    On a falling star?
    Held hope from a string
    Of delicate things?

    When was the last time you...
    Got lost
    In an enchanted wood?
    Or were kissed by a prince
    Who turned into a frog?
    Consulted with a caterpillar
    Or kidnapped a myth?

    When was the last time you...
    Had a visit
    From your fairy godmother
    Who turned pumpkins into coaches
    And wishes
    Into wings?

    When was the last time you...
    Cried lost tears?
    Into the lake of longing?
    Sipped inspiration
    From the pool of wonder?
    Or rose, victorious,
    Like a phoenix
    From the ashes?

    When did you last...
    Lay your head in the lap of awe
    And listened to a song
    From a distant shore
    Called home?

    The time is NOW
    Remember your dreams
    And unseen things
    Sing with raputre
    And dance...
    Dance like a dervish!
    And when inspiration knocks
    Open the door!

    I will never forget you my dear brother, you meant everything to me. I live because you want me to live. I love because you want me to love and I take comfort in the fact that someday I will see you again.

    Johnathan Derrick. 17/02/1965 - 13/07/2008
    Gone, but never forgotten.
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  2. vickie1985

    vickie1985 PetForums VIP

    Feb 18, 2009
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    :( such beautiful words, im sure your brother is looking after you as best he can, and he will want you to know that its ok to have a cry, infact it helps.

    I cant even begin to undrstand how you feel, but as i sit here with tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat im taking away a tiny peice of your pain.

    i feel so proud of you :) and i know Jonathan is proud too xxx
  3. scosha37

    scosha37 PetForums VIP

    Feb 24, 2008
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    So sorry to hear of your tradgic loss..xxx

    Lovely poem indeed xxx
  4. Badger's Mum

    Badger's Mum PetForums VIP

    Mar 23, 2009
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    Your brother will be mighty proud of you, Put's all the silly bickering on here too shame, no one no's what's round the corner.
  5. animallover111

    Apr 25, 2009
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    Thinking of you and your family today Sequeena.
    Your brother would be very proud of you.
    Lovely poem xxx
    RIP Johnathan :(
  6. Dylan & Daisy

    Dylan & Daisy PetForums VIP

    Feb 4, 2009
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    Gone but definitely NOT forgotten

    beautifully thought out words (((hug)))
  7. alyssa_liss

    alyssa_liss PetForums VIP

    May 4, 2009
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    your brother would be proud of you
    RIP Johnathan x
  8. Sampuppy

    Sampuppy PetForums VIP

    Oct 22, 2008
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    Thinking of you all today. Sending love and best wishes to you all as you remember a wonderful man. x
  9. davehyde

    davehyde Banned

    Jul 13, 2009
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    it's a year today.

    thoughts are with you, it's awful to lose a bro.

    i lost my little brother 24th of last month.

    remember him today and have a drink for him and replay happy memories.
  10. HighlandQuine

    HighlandQuine PetForums Senior

    Mar 23, 2009
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    Those really are beautiful words.

    Thinking of you and your family at this hard time and sending hugs your way. :)

    RIP Johnathan
  11. brackensmom

    brackensmom PetForums VIP

    Jun 15, 2009
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    Hi so sorry for your tragic loss, thinking of you and your family today. the poem is lovely, your brother would be proud of you. Take care.
    RIP Johnathan
  12. suzy93074

    suzy93074 PetForums VIP

    Sep 3, 2008
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    Sequeena your brother would be extremely proud of you. I cannot imagine the pain you and your family have been through....I sat and read your post with tears in my eyes:( May your brother RIP xxx
  13. Gobaith

    Gobaith PetForums VIP

    Jun 6, 2009
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    Im so sorry for your loss hun and words cant even begin to describe the heartache your going through. Your brother would be so proud of the strength and courage you are emitting. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family today as you remember the courageous and gentle man you are grieving for.

    x x x

    Chloe x
  14. claire

    claire Guest

    Sorry for your loss, our thoughts are with u x
  15. Ladywiccana

    Ladywiccana PetForums VIP

    Feb 24, 2008
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    Awwwwww huni, its always hard when we lose a loved one, but in those circumstances i can only begin to imagine what you all went through, and still do!
    Like already posted, your brother would be very proud of you for being you!
    And i feel that his spirit visits you now from time to time! Just try and see if you can smell any of his favourite fragrances and that will be him near you!

    When you were younger, you always
    used to play, fun & games with your
    brother nearly everyday!
    Although there were times that you
    may have fallen out, He really cared and
    loved you all, of that there is no doubt!

    Now he has left you, you feel so alone,
    fear not my lovely, because you will
    never walk alone!
    When you hear footsteps, falling close
    behind you, and you turn around to see,
    that no one else is there, It
    will be your lovely brother showing
    he still cares!

    Although you all still miss him, that
    is plain to see, light a candle and
    say a prayer, so his spirit can be
    set free!
    He will always be with you in what
    ever you choose to do, in thought,
    in mind and in your heart he will
    always be!

    K Y A 13/07/2009 Copyrighted (c)

    R.I.P Jonathan Derrick 1965 -2008
    #15 Ladywiccana, Jul 13, 2009
    Last edited: Jul 13, 2009
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  16. Luvdogs

    Luvdogs PetForums VIP

    Aug 15, 2008
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    How very tragic, my thoughts are with you and your family :(
  17. rottiesloveragdolls

    Nov 2, 2007
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    Oh im so sorry to hear of the lose of Johnathan :( RIP Bless him

    Love the peoms you have posted and Lady w ;)
  18. LostGirl

    LostGirl PetForums VIP

    Jan 16, 2009
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    You can hear the love you have for your brother in your post, Rest in peace Johnathan. xxx
  19. PoisonGirl

    PoisonGirl Banned

    Oct 24, 2008
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    My thoughts are with you and your family today.
    Your brother would be so proud of you, being so strong.
    Your post brought tears to my eyes *hugs*

    x x x
  20. kath123

    kath123 Guest

    Thinking of you today and everyday Sequeena.

    Your brother is looking down on you always and loves you very much.

    Sending you a big hug darling. xxxxxxxx
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