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Discussion in 'General Chat' started by sequeena, Jun 23, 2009.


  1. sequeena

    sequeena PetForums VIP

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    It's less than 3 weeks until the first anniversary of my brother's death, for some reason I can't stop thinking of him today and this song keeps coming to mind:

    Christina Aguilera - Hurt

    Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
    You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
    If only I knew what I know today, ooh, ooh

    I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
    Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
    There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
    Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there


    Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
    For everything I just couldn't do
    And I've hurt myself by hurting you

    Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
    Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
    And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh

    Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?
    Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?
    There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
    To look into your eyes and see you looking back

    Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
    For everything I just couldn't do
    And I've hurt myself, oh

    If I had just one more day
    I would tell you how much that I've missed you
    Since you've been away

    Oh, it's dangerous
    It's so out of line
    To try and turn back time

    I'm sorry for blaming you
    For everything I just couldn't do
    And I've hurt myself
    By hurting you


    I really miss him today :(
     
  2. jilly40

    jilly40 PetForums VIP

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    Aww Hunny ((hugs ))to You Xx
     
  3. Poppy09

    Poppy09 PetForums Senior

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    Thats lovely, Chin up and think of the good times you had x
     
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    Huge hugs to you, i hope you will be OK
    xxx
     
  5. Dylan & Daisy

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    Awwww (((((hugs)))))) you've been through a lot lately hun :(

    That song has very poignant words i think xxxx
     
  6. sequeena

    sequeena PetForums VIP

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    Thanks all, I'll be fine, I'm just dreading it. I can't believe a year has passed. It seems like only yesterday my mother was waking me up tell me he had been murdered, and it's a world away from the many hours I spent on the phone to Somerset police, writing to the DVLA to cancel my step fathers speeding ticket (which he got from speeding from Wales to Bristol upon hearing John had been stabbed) and arranging the funeral :(
     
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    HighlandQuine PetForums Senior

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    I'm really sorry for your loss :(

    Sending hugs and snugs your way at this difficult time. :)
     
  8. sequeena

    sequeena PetForums VIP

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    Thank you hun :) xx
     
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    Thinking of you....:( We will all be here when you need us xxx
     
  10. sequeena

    sequeena PetForums VIP

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    Thank you suzy, it means a lot :( x

    His death signalled a big change in my life. Less than a month later I moved out of my mother's and in with a friend, I just couldn't stand being at home but I think it did me the world of good. I went to London 5 days after his death (I had booked a weekend with my best mate for her birthday and we went to see a show), it was surreal.
     
  11. Ladywiccana

    Ladywiccana PetForums VIP

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    Huni im so sorry!

    I know its hard not to feel sad, just try and remember all the good times you both shared, and i bet his spirit is with you as we speak! You try and remember his favourite fragrances and food and see if you can smell them and feel him near you! Because he will be by your side, as the time gets closer hun!
     
  12. sequeena

    sequeena PetForums VIP

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    Thanks hun x I often think I can smell his aftershave :)
     
  13. Pamela

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    I am so sorry for your loss and I know how you are feeling. It has been almost 9 months since i lost my Brother so sending you some ((((((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))) we are all here if you need us. xx
     
  14. Nicci

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    Thinking of you all. xx

    I know what it feels like to have someone snatched away from you in the most horrible of circumstances. So you and your family have my deepest of sympathies. xx
     
  15. sequeena

    sequeena PetForums VIP

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    I am so sorry for you both, you are welcome to pm me if you wish - I know that talking to strangers sometimes helps x
     
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    Don't no what too say but you no where i am;) If you want a chat anytime
    chris X
     
  17. sequeena

    sequeena PetForums VIP

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    Thanks hun, you're a real star xx
     
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    Im so sorry for you sweetie, I know what its like to lose close family members too so my heart is with you.

    Sending you lots of big hugs

    ((((((((((((((x)))))))))))))

    Jen xxx
     
  19. sequeena

    sequeena PetForums VIP

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    Thanks hun, life doesn't half throw us some lemons xx
     
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    My thoughts are with you hunny, i know what its like to loose someone you love, sending big (hugs) xxx
     
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