I am so frustrated and fed up today I could cry!! Yesterday I was having a bit of a celebration on how far I had some in the past 4 weeks with my mental health and managing to avoid A+E for a week which had previously been a daily visit and managing to not have the police involved for 3 weeks, something that had previously been happening about once a week. I believe I have managed to come this far with the help of my nurses at my gp surgery, who have been seeing me on a Monday and Friday for 'wound checks' and a bit of a chat and a kind of 'check in' Well last Friday I got ill and ended up with vertigo, which I thought was getting better, I went GP today for the 2nd time as I want it sorted before I end up ill for ages again, the gp basically told me that I just have to be patient and it is just 'congestion'... I have no other symptoms however! I am fed up of the vertigo already, I have a phobia of being sick so ignoring it and carrying on isn't an option plus it meant I could only really do things within the first 2 hours of waking up (vertigo wasn't bad at that time) Then today my main suspension shock absorber snapped on my bike while on my way back from my drs appointment. So not only have I lost my only form of transport, I am now unable to attend the wound checks and mental health appointments which have kept me going until now! I literally feel like I am at a loss now, not sure of what to do, feel more alone than ever! And so angry about my bike I have literally no money to repair it, plus it is an imported model so the past is £350, my bike is only worth £500 at a push! I live in the middle of nowhere with hardly any buses and my drs is the opposite direction to the buses. I just needed a rant, I feel like going to bed and giving up on today, but I know this will still be about tomorrow!! Oh not to mention my parents are the most unsupportive people ever.