Today I had my 20 year old cat, Archie, put to sleep. I decided to have him euthanised at home and I feel a bit traumatised by it. Archie was given a sedative which put him in a deep sleep. Then he was injected with the other stuff. 5 minutes later his heart rate was still the same. I asked the vet if that was normal. He said yes and that his heart rate was dropping. I could see it wasn't. After another minute or two he asked me if I could get a blanket to wrap Archie in. I ran upstairs to get one and when I got back Archie had died. I then helped wrap Archie and put him in the body bag. Holding his limp body was so upsetting. When the vet left I realised he didn't use the blanket I was sent upstairs to get. I've worked out that he sent me away as he had to do something else to get Archie to die. It's making me so upset thinking he ended up dying in pain.