I was thinking of deleting my account a short while ago but have decided to stay as I have made some good friends on here. A few weeks ago I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer - although I had symptoms months ago I was too scared to go to the docs about it. We have a strong family history of it and I had no doubt that it was Cancer but kept it to myself. I wish I did something sooner & its thanks to Eastenders Tanya that I decided to finally go. Only one week later I had a hospital appointment for an ultrascan and from there I immediatly was sent for a mammogram and straight down for a biopsy within an hour of each other. I have two invasive cancers. one 55mm which is pretty huge and one 15mm in the same breast which I was told just a week on from my biopsy. The day after being diognosed I was sent for a sentinal lymph node biopsy to see if it had spread to my lymph nodes in my armpit. they took 9 nodes and only one had cancer so they said that was good news. Today at 10am I have to go to have a PICC line fitted ready for Chemotherapy which starts on Friday. I am so scared. Scared im going to lose my hair and scared i'm going to be so helpless and that I probably wont have enough energy to walk my dogs. My husband can do that of course but I really enjoy walking the dogs for hours but I know thats not going to happen for a while. I have about 4 months of Chemo (6 sessions 3 weeks apart) and then in about 7 months time i'm likely to need a mastectomy. Because of the family history im also going to be tested to see if I have the inherited faulty breast cancer gene. If so then I am advised to consider a double mastectomy and may be able to have a implant reconstruction at the same time. TBH i'm more worrid about my hair which is silly really as hair grows back. I've chosen a really nice wig in case it happens and the wig is so realistic that nobody would be able to tell it was one unless I told them so thats one good thing I guess. Anyway I was going to leave but have decided to stay. I guess I was just having a few awful weeks and feeling sorry for myself. I'm feeling more positive now but just dreading the effects of the chemo.