well we went to london today with the kids as planned. went to natural history museum, covent garden and also to the o2 arena to watch walking with dinosaurs, we had such a fab day that my mind was occupied not to think to much about jack. tonight when home i went to the buns to feed and water and forgot about what happened and went to fill up jacks bowl. got a little down when i realised but instead of getting upset i took a small pinch of food and sprinkled it over his burial site which made me feel like im still looking after him. i know i cant keep doing it but it made me feel better tonight as its still so fresh.