Well I've been dreading the 31st January for a few weeks now as it is 2 years ago today that I lost my beautiful girl Koda...I've changed my mind numerous times over the last few days about what to say and whether to even do this thread at all as I find it so hard to deal with writing or speaking about her, I feel like I have a tennis ball lodged in my throat and my eyes are stinging and blurry already ...time out for a cigarette for 5 minutes, I'll be back..... Ok my apologies, deep breath and I'll carry on. To Koda, You came into my life totally by surprise and chance one day back in 2004...I'm not one for making daft rash decisions on a whim, on the contrary...usually everything I do in life is weighed up, well researched and hugely worried over but for whatever reason that day it all went out of the window and the moment I held you I knew there was no chance at all that I was going to leave without you, it was the best daft thing I've ever done in my entire life! My life changed that day and I had found the most amazing best friend anyone could ever hope to have, your soft, gentle and loving personality was so endearing, your slightly nervous nature meant that you looked to me for confirmation that new people or places were safe....once you had it you were so friendly, playful and just a little bit zany, you were my shadow and I knew you were right there behind me looking up at me with so much love, we didn't need words as we had connected on such a level that our eyes did all the talking, you were my 3rd child and I couldn't have asked for a more wonderful and patient dog for my two young daughters to play with, your loyalty and devotion was beyond anything I've ever known in my whole life...you were with me through so many good times and I will treasure those memories forever, we also got through so many bad times together...so many I could mention but particularly when we lost our buddy Scott in November 2009, without you I would have fallen to pieces so many times and for that I thank you from the bottom on my heart. I'm struggling to continue so I'll leave it at that but I will just say that every day I miss you so much, my heart broke the day I lost you and the emotions I feel now are still every bit as raw as they were back then but I know one day I will be with you and Scott again for big bear hugs, you are both forever in my thoughts and my heart. My best friend and canine soul mate...Koda-Bear I love you sweetheart. :001_wub: Added info : I forgot to add an important part of my message earlier, I just want to say that I lost Koda at only 5 and a half due to bloat, if anybody reading isn't aware of this condition then please arm yourself with as much information on this horrible condition as possible....there is a sticky in the Health and Nutrition section about this and I can't stress enough how important it is to know the signs and symptoms, if I had known more then maybe my Koda would still be with me now Bloat is a truly terrifying condition that can kill a perfectly healthy dog within hours, I hope by writing this I can prevent the same thing happening to even just one other owner and their dog.