My little 6 year old cavalier had to undergo emergency surgery this Monday for a bowel obstruction. She had her bowel cut open in four places and also her stomach cut open. Tuesday she seemed to do great, then on Wednesday she developed secondary peritonitis. One of the incisions in the bowel had come open and was leaking septic fluid into her abdominal cavitiy so she had another emergency surgery and had some of her bowel resected. It has been 32 hours since the second surgery and she is not doing well. I know I have done everything I can for her. Above and beyond actually as my father is the veterinarian who performed the surgeries and took care of her. I work for him and was there for both surgeries and monitored her day and night but she is not going to make it. I am going to spend the day with her tomorrow and then on Sunday will have to euthanize her. I am so heart broken. She is so young and I was not prepared for this and am not ready and I hurt so much and don’t know how to say goodbye. I haven’t slept all week and seeing her in pain breaks my heart and I don’t know how to tell her it will be ok or that her suffering will end soon. And I don’t know how to be ok. She stood by me through some of the most difficult times of my life and I can’t stop crying. I am dreading Sunday. Dreading it. I feel as if it’s a bad dream. I don’t want to let her go. How do I do this? How do I prepare? How do I be ok? Does anyone have any advice?