My beautiful daughter, my naughty girl is gone. She was acting strange last two days, I thought it was because of fleas, we have terrible infestation, can't get rid of them. Mainly because I can't afford it, can't afford anything, I'm a piece of $hit, unwanted everywhere, begging for work and being shooed away with kicks. Maybe she was so stressed she developed fip, I don't know, I don't want to live anymore, not without her. Just sitting here, with her body on my lap, kissing her cold nose and crying. She was my everything and I couldn't save her. Couldn't even care for her properly. I'm a $hit and she payed the price for it. I hate myself, I wish it was me, not her.