My dog Ziva is 10 now and being a Rhodesian Ridgeback I know that time is running out because she's a large breed. My last dog was a boxer but due to complications I lost her at 6 so this is the first time I've had an older dog. I completely hold myself responsible for my dogs so it feels like the burden of being responsible and capable of coping is crushing me. I'm not sure if it's because I've been in lockdown for the last 12 months (haven't we all) but I just don't seem to be coping so well with her lately. Every time she has the slightest groan or whine I feel like it's the end of the world. Pet insurance is now up to £100 a month and is set to renew in March and is bound to increase the same it does every year. She has an issue currently where she keeps clearing her throat a little and her snoring has gotten ridiculous, she had xrays this last year which showed she had bronchitis and we did a million checks for her lethargy which all came back clear and since then she's picked back up. She eats very well still and is drinking plenty and is holding her weight bang on at 40kgs. I've been to the vets for the clearing of throat but they listened to her lungs and poked her throat lots and were very happy with everything but I think I'll take her back again because she was sick in the middle of the day yesterday. She struggles with her back legs and stiffness so she's on daily metacam and I give her some cobalaplex for her gut health and to keep her B12 levels good. She's on yumove currently but I'm going to stop them as I cant see a reason to give them on top of the metacam for pain. I was even looking at Ridgeback rescues yesterday because I just felt like I couldn't cope and someone with more money should have her, someone who doesn't feel like they're about to crumble at the prospect of her being unwell. Apologies for this being a longer thread but the only person I see is my boyfriend as he is my support bubble and I'd love to hear from some other people who feel like they're losing the plot with their beloved dogs and older age. Or just reassurance that it's not just me who isn't coping!!