Hey guys, I'm new! We had a Bull Mastiff called Buddy! When we first got him, I wasn't happy! My husband was supposed to be buying a tattoo, but here he comes with this puppy! :thumbdown: I moaned about him allll the time, hairs getting every where, getting in my feet, eating my cons! :yikes: But he grew on me and I grew to love him, dare I say, like one of my kids.:001_wub: We used to dance together in the kitchen (would make everyone laugh!), he would always lay by me, even if I went up stairs he came with me. I said he would never get in the bed, but you know what? He gave the best cosies so why not! He was great with our four kids, he was my youngest's (he was 4 at the time) best friend. They play around the house, chasing each other. He would just lay on the floor and let my son roll all over him, he was such a beautiful and loving dog. Until one day my husband was taking him for a walk and a young girl (abt 3/4) came up to him from the side to pet him. Well he'd never bothered about this before, he loved attention and especially from kids. We really don't know what happened or what caused him to do what he did. But he bit her . He bit her bottom lip and scratched her face with his paw...almost like he was scared/spooked! The poor little girl had to have an operation to ensure the inside of her lip didn't get infected (he didn't bite right through thank god!!). The police then charged my husband with the dangerous dog act and advised us we had to rehome him, due to the little girl living in our street, or put him down. The only places we were allowed to rehome him with was the kennel/rescue home or not at all. We tried everyone we could, but no-one would take him saying "once they've done it once they'll do it again". How can my gorgeous sweet dog do such a thing? and why were we now faced with the most horrible decision?! When the day came and my husband took him to the vet to put him to sleep. I couldn't go, I just couldn't watch such a horrible thing happen! On the day, he was so happy, playing around in the garden and giving me cosies....I just kept thinking "I wonder if he knows? Will he hate us?" I miss him so much I cry almost every day! The guilt I feel over letting him down is unbearable! Our kids think he's on a farm somewhere and ask of him often. I can bearly choke out a sentence back to them. I think my husband is coping in his own way, after all it was his dog. But I have never lost anyone in my life and in all honesty didn't expect losing Buddy to hurt this much. Most of the time I actually feel sick, like an empty sickly feeling in the pit of my stomach! I've slept for 4 hours last night, because I keep dreaming about him. My dreams are so vivid too, I actually wake up and my hand still feels like I had been petting him. Am I just being silly and need to get over it? It happened nearly 4 months ago! When I go out jogging I go past the tree we scattered his ashes, sit for a moment and just sob! This can't be good! My house feels horrible without him in it, like it's empty! there is 6 of us here, this just seems so silly!