Not sure how to start this, but i feel like i need to get this off my chest and see if anyone else feels this way. I have owned animals all my life. I grew up surrounded by them and when i moved out it didn't take me long to start my own furry family. I never had anxiety or panic attacks over my animals or anything in general before. I would worry if they were sick and of course be devastated if any of my families pets passed. But I've seemed to develop an anxiety or extreme reaction to my pets health within the last couple of years. I think it all started with my first puppy. I had 2 cats already (which were no problem) and i decided to get my first dog. I immediately began to have pain attacks when she arrived. I was terrified that i was going to raise her wrong. As she got older that went away and i stupidly decided to get another dog. This was were it got worse. After a year with him he was diagnosed as epileptic. My world turned upside down and my mental state went with it. It was really rough and as his health declined so did my mental health. This year just after his second b day i made the difficult decision to put him down. It still hurts but i did what i knew was right for him even if it killed me. Jump to less then a month ago i decided to fostered 2 kittens. Stupid again. Clearly there is a pattern. Unfortunately one was sick which i was not advised of and it got my long time ragdoll sick. Now i sit here a ball of anxiety feeling scared for my cat and guilt over putting her in this situation. I can't stop thinking the worse is going to happen even though i am doing all i can to get her better. Sorry for the emotionally word vomit. Has anybody else felt this way about their pets health? Anybody have any tips on how to deal or just some understanding? I've reached out to my parents but they don't understand why i get so worked up and can't just think positively. I live alone so many animals mean the world to me and it is so hard not having someone to voice your worries too or to just hand over some of the worry to for a little while.