Awwww your gonna make me cry....I lost to very special kitties 3 years apart. My Mataeo was attacked by a dog...I had him for 6 wonderful years...I had such a hard time getting over him that my mom adopted me another kitty who I named Alex, I had to have him put to sleep almost 3 years ago, he was only 3. He got some kind of infection in his mouth that attacked his liver. It is so hard...u never forget them but trust me, it does get easier. The trick is to try and remember all the special times and memories u have of them.