I put Baby to sleep last night. Baby came to my home at one month old,in 2014. She is such a beautiful and tough girl. I rmb the night after her desex surgery. She was so tired after General anesthesia and the wound really made her uncomfortable. Yet she still insisted to jump off from the sofa and went to toilet by herself. She was smart and loves to eat dog treats. Wherever I hide the food,she still able to find it. No matter how late I came home, she always come to the door and greet me. However, she suffered from several diseases since she was 9 years old. Spinal spur, skin mass, hepatitis , cataract, pancreatitis... I brought her to clinic every month and acupuncture session every two weeks. Baby is brave enough to been through that much. Last night, after I took her for walk. I gave her a bath and just about to feed her supper. She suddenly rushed to the toilet and pooped. After she came out, I found her hind legs were paralyzed and unable to stand straight. She started moaning which I never seen before. I brought her to emergency immediately. The doc said Baby may suffered from spinal cord collapses or lower limb embolism. After examination, doctor said there was no pulse on her legs and no blood came out with needle stick. Her limbs started getting very cold. Her X Ray showed there are multiple masses in her right lung. I was shocked coz Baby never showed any cough or abnormalities in breathing. The masses big enough to slightly shift her heart. Doctor said even if she is on the blood clot dissolvent , it is not 100% work and the dissolved blood clot ,which contained toxins, may circulate her body and cause shock. And Baby is too old for any anesthesia, especially her lung condition is deteriorated. After discussion, my family and I agreed to put Baby to sleep and end her suffering. Whole family members stayed with her. I hold her in my arms tightly until her last heartbeat. Baby, you will be missed. I love you forever. I believe we will meet again.