I try not to remember anniversaries of deaths of my cats, but sometimes I get reminded by accidentally hearing a tune that I was playing around that time or something, and my heart breaks all over again. I do always remember Sept 17th, when my poor Muira was attacked by a dog and I had to fight it, and she ran away but ran the wrong way and I couldn't save her in the end, but I did give her a kiss on the head................. I feel so sad and so so angry ........ it's been 6 and a half years now, and I feel terrible whenever I think of her, even a nice memory, it all makes me feels guilty, I should have helped her more when she was alive. She never even went more than a meter from my flat, the dog got her as she tried to get back on my balcony.
I cannot pass another cat in the street these days without worrying that a dog might get it, or it may get hit by a car, all I want to do is give a cat a stroke on it's garden path but I daren't, I even walk a different way just so as I wont be there if something happens to it.
I keep my poor cats in, but I wish they could roam in the grass and woodland freely.
Muira had a litter of dead kittens once too, I bet that was my fault, would she have felt sad? I loved her soooo much, I still wish she was here so I could hug her.

Sending you the biggest load of cuddles!
Nothing that happened was your fault, it is very tragic, but not your fault, you tried to save her. I am so sorry to hear about the kittens to .

She sounded such a lovely cat! of which you clearly doted over.

RIP Muira

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I am so sorry to hear of your loss, please do not blame yourself though, sending big hugs you way, RIP Muira xxx

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