So sorry about Joshua its always horrible when a pet dies but when they go so young its just not fair, I'm sure you can also fully understand that feeling of there being no justice and feeling cheated...along with the anger, sadness and guilt.
The smallest things can remind you and set you off down the "if only...." road, which I know is pointless.
You remember the good times and the silly little things they did and end up laughing to yourself through all the tears.
Life is so tough sometimes

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Lisa x

Mummy to : Leila, Sophie and also Nikita the Siberian Husky.

RIP - Koda-Bear the Bernese Mountain Dog (my best furry friend and canine soulmate), Scott the Newfoundland (miss ya big guy) , also Fliss, Tara, Sophie, Ben, Poppy and Scamp.

This is who I really am - 30 Seconds to Mars (The Kill)
I am not afraid…I was born to do this - Joan of Arc
Love is being stupid together - Paul Valery

Thank you for your reply, I think you're right...its not about replacing Koda, that just isn't possible.
I've been having the arguement with myself about getting another for quite a while now, the first year without Koda I couldn't even think about it but since the beginning of this year I've been pondering over how I feel about it all and I have decided to get one, I have always had dogs and my life and house feels empty without one (not to mention far too clean and hair/mud free! )
I love Berners but I'm too scared to get another one, I don't quite trust that I won't burst into tears everytime I look at it, so after much research on breeds that are suitable for my family I'm searching for a Dalmatian or Siberian Husky....I'm excited but also scared about how I'll feel but don't doubt for a second that when he/she is here it will feel like the best decision I ever made

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Lisa x

Mummy to : Leila, Sophie and also Nikita the Siberian Husky.

RIP - Koda-Bear the Bernese Mountain Dog (my best furry friend and canine soulmate), Scott the Newfoundland (miss ya big guy) , also Fliss, Tara, Sophie, Ben, Poppy and Scamp.

This is who I really am - 30 Seconds to Mars (The Kill)
I am not afraid…I was born to do this - Joan of Arc
Love is being stupid together - Paul Valery

What you really need is a newfie! Everyone needs a newfie! He will provide you with all the hair and mud and doggie smells you could ever wish for

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Thank you for your reply, that was why we never got another border collie, even after we got Lexi if I saw another BC while walking her I would end up in tears but time heals and I can now look at and fuss BC's without a problem. Just remember when you do find your newbie we need plenty of photos.........

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Bless you Lisa, I know how you feel. I lost my first Rottie Anya about nine years ago and like your Koda, she was my canine soulmate. She came to me by default (I was only supposed to foster her for a short time), an ex breeding bitch aged 5 who was not house trained or socialised. Within a week I couldn't let her go, we just clicked.

She went through so much with me,travels in Europe, an abusive relationship, homelessness (she fed us more often than not!) unemployment, a new relationship, the birth of my first child, helping me raise my baby - everything. I relied on her so much that when I lost her after 10 fantastic years together it broke my heart into a million pieces. She was 15, so a good age for a Rottie, I can't imagine how you must have felt with Koda being so young

Anya died in my arms & I spent about a week in bed after she died, just really couldn't cope and didn't have another dog for about 6 years and then I couldn't bring myself to have another Rott because it wouldn't have been the same.

I don't know if you ever really do move on. I still have her ashes and collar and I think of her every day but now I have my boys, my Great Dane Jensen(the problem child ) and little Zeke Rottie. Both were rescues who needed a good home, like Anya was, both unique, funny characters who need me as much as I need them.

No dog will ever replace Koda in your heart and you shouldn't feel bad for that. Just remember how privileged you were to know her, even if it was for a short time.

You'll know when the time is right for you to bring a new dog into your life.

Sending you massive healing hugs and I hope it all works out for you xx

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haha!...yes don't I know it, our newfie Scott was a bugger for bringing in all kinds of strange smells , sadly he passed away in November 2009 (I lost Scott and Koda within 3 months of each other ), I miss that big black bear sooooo much too...I did deal with losing him a little better than Koda though, I don't mean that in a hard way but he survived to a good age and had been ill towards the end, I knew it was coming so when he eventually did go it wasn't a shock and I felt quite relieved for him because I knew he'd had enough...hope you know what I mean?
My OH is constantly going on at me about getting a newfie, he loves them and he didn't have the pleasure of meeting Scott because he passed away just before we met, I keep saying no though...same reason as with Koda...I feel like every time I look at it I would see Scott and I'm not sure I want to have to face that emotion.

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Lisa x

Mummy to : Leila, Sophie and also Nikita the Siberian Husky.

RIP - Koda-Bear the Bernese Mountain Dog (my best furry friend and canine soulmate), Scott the Newfoundland (miss ya big guy) , also Fliss, Tara, Sophie, Ben, Poppy and Scamp.

This is who I really am - 30 Seconds to Mars (The Kill)
I am not afraid…I was born to do this - Joan of Arc
Love is being stupid together - Paul Valery

Thank you for your help, it does help to know that people understand how you feel, its lovely that you can now fuss BC's, it is so damn hard to deal with but you're right...time does heal
Don't worry, the camera will be out the instant I get the new furry bundle home!

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Lisa x

Mummy to : Leila, Sophie and also Nikita the Siberian Husky.

RIP - Koda-Bear the Bernese Mountain Dog (my best furry friend and canine soulmate), Scott the Newfoundland (miss ya big guy) , also Fliss, Tara, Sophie, Ben, Poppy and Scamp.

This is who I really am - 30 Seconds to Mars (The Kill)
I am not afraid…I was born to do this - Joan of Arc
Love is being stupid together - Paul Valery

Thank you for your lovely reply (which I don't mind admitting made me shed a tear) it is a huge help to know that other people understand and also is pretty amazing that so many people who don't even know me are prepared to offer so much help.
I do feel very privileged to have known Koda, so lucky that she was my baby girl for the time I had her...just wish more than anything things could have been different, I wanted her to go an old lady.
I'm so sorry to hear about Anya, these furry creatures come into your life and steal your heart don't they!...I'm so pleased you have these two lovely characters in your life now, I think it is what I need too.
Sending a big hug back to you

Thank you again and also to everybody else who has given me a shoulder to cry on, it is appreciated so very much.

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Lisa x

Mummy to : Leila, Sophie and also Nikita the Siberian Husky.

RIP - Koda-Bear the Bernese Mountain Dog (my best furry friend and canine soulmate), Scott the Newfoundland (miss ya big guy) , also Fliss, Tara, Sophie, Ben, Poppy and Scamp.

This is who I really am - 30 Seconds to Mars (The Kill)
I am not afraid…I was born to do this - Joan of Arc
Love is being stupid together - Paul Valery