Hello. Im a newby here on the forum and I happened to stumble across this by chance.
I lost my precious baby Squeak on Saturday. Squeak ( domestic black and white cat) was suffering from chronic renal disease and from hyperthyroidism. She developed thyroidism about a year and half ago in which was being controlled by her medication and steady, however in April this year, she was also diagnosed with chronic renal disease. She was put on prescription cat food and was given monthly boosters to help reinforce her strength and appetite. She took a liking to her new food and she was doing so well, gaining weight and looking lot happier ..until the past week; where her health took a turn.
She stopped eating and would not take her medication.. all she wanted is water and her sleep. Another thing I noticed was that her behaviour was 'odd' as such whereby she would sit and stare outside patio window, and sneak under the bed sheets/blankets.. she also started to stare a the flames in the fire place heater and would be mesmerisd by the colours and flames ... however all she wanted was love,affection and attention. She didnt want to be alone ...

Saturday morning .. I took her to the vets as I had started to worry about her well being and the vet told me that she was over hydrated .. and was not looking good .. they gave me three options.. first blood test to see what state her kidneys were in and secondly hyrdrate her .. or thirdly.. to put her down ... I was shocked and told vet .. No way was I going to let her go .. so they undertook blood tests which proved that her condition was very 'poor' and the chances of her getting better were negligle .. so they told me the best thing .. act of kindness I could do for squeak was to 'put her down'!!

I was unconsolable.... I kept on saying to myself ! NO!! i cant do it !! I cant lose her .. Squeak had been my best friend/companion for over 13 years and there was no way I was going to let her go !! I kept praying and hoping this was all a big mistake and she would get better however when i got to the hospital to see her .. her condition had got worse and she could hardly lift her head up .. she was so glad to see me .. her mummy !! all I did was weep for my child / my baby becos I knew deep down I would have to do the right thing and let her go with some pride and dignity.. what sort of quality of life would she have have if she kept living ..she was in so much pain however I could see a tear in her eye and then I knew yes she was suffering and I had to let her go ...

Squeak died at 6 pm Saturday 22 October .. I could not stop my self crying as I would not see my baby again .. I kissed her goodbye and told her to close her eyes and sleep ---- my heart ached so much .. feeling so sick of the fact that i had to let her go ... after 10 mins it was all over .. she had gone.. she had crossed over to Rainbow bridge ... my life is full of empyness and sadness that i have not stopped crying for days.. feels so weak and drained ; however I know that I must carry on with life but so many constant reminders of my dearest friend just upsets me ..

Squeak was a loving cat; all she gave me was unconditional love... she loved her mummy and she loved to be surrounded by people and was friendly with them ... I am going to miss her sooo much .. I miss our cuddles, miss that she is not next to me ... no longer sleeping with me ... i miss her kisses .... she knew when i was feeling down and would always kiss me better ...

I miss the little patter of her feet and I cannot imagine living the next 20 years without her .... Squeaky !!! mummy will never forget you and I pray to God that you are safe and happy .. and free in Rainbow Bridge ... I will never forget you and hope that one day.. we will be reunited

RIP Squeak

Love Mummy xxxxxx

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Your love for Squeak shows so clearly in your post
RIP beloved Squeak
I hope you will be able to look back at Squeak's life with more smiles than tears in the not too distant future.

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Time had come for you to stay safe with all our Angels at the Bridge. I know your mum will miss you dearly and it will take time, you'll always be in her heart and thoughts, take care little one

Run free at the Bridge xxx

(((hugs)))

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One day i'll learn where the spellcheck is on my phone, so sorry for any mistakes

I am so sorry for your loss of Squeak.
It is one of the sad things we have to go through when we have pets.
I hope her happy memories will help you through and soon you will be able to laugh at some of the things she use to do.
Try and look to the future and keep yourself busy.
In a few months time it will be 2012 and maybe when you feel you can, you could perhaps adopt a liitle orphaned puss to share you life with you.

Squeak had a great life with you and now is at Rainbow Bridge where you will meet again one Day.

R.I.P Squeak and run free at the Bridge xx

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Im really sorry for your loss squeak looks like a very special friend.

RIP Squeak x x x