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A dog will come to call, A cat will take a message and get back to you

Hello all

I am new to here but needed to come somewhere where I can let out what I am feeling without making my other half feel bad.

I lost my beloved cat, Murphy on Saturday. he was (we believe) knocked down and my boyfriend and I found him dead on the neighbours drive.

I am seriously struggling to come to terms with this. I just want to curl up and cry most of the time. I am not interested in the gym, or work for that matter at the minute. I feel so deeply lost without him.

I have had him for 5 years and we have been through a lot together and he helped me through a pretty tough break up. We were so close and I truly have had a piece of my heart die this weekend.

I have lost two pets previously but that was due to old age and illnesses, but I am so angry with the person who hit my little man and with me. With me becuase I let him out on Friday night and I shouldn't have done. I knew when I got up Saturday morning in my heart that i had lost him as he had never been away this long. He loves his food.

I miss him no longer cuddling up to me at night. We had a routine where he would lie next to me, almost in my arms and really snug into my belly. I am so missing that.

I am missing not talking to him. If you know what i mean. How they purr back and you talk with them.

As you can probably tell I just miss so much and nothing else at the minute seems to matter, especially work!!

I am so tired too. Unbelievably so.


Has any body else been through this and can give me some advice? I feel like I am lsoing my mind with being so tired and wanting to cry so much. I even dread coming to my house now becuase of the bad memories I asscoaite with it. I can not walk our dog past the neighbours house. I have to avoid it like the plague.

Is this normal?

Thank you.

Gemma