i had a horse called Honey couldn't have wished for a lovelier pony she never put a foot wrong but like the previous person Honey was fine at two in the afternoon when i fed her at five thirty i got a phone call to say honey looked ill ring a vet and get down here now my dad took me as i was in a real state my daughter was crying and was given to our friends next door. When we got to the stables she was sweating up and walking in circles the vet came said he wasn't sure what it was gave her an injection at which point she was still eating, after the injection ware off she started to sweat up again so we got the outer hours vet out she tubed her and Honey just stood there she looked a bit better by this time it was midnight my poor long suffering dad told me to go home and he would stay another two hours with her i wanted to stay but i am on epilepsey tablets and i hadn't eaten anything all day so i had to go home. Next day the vet came back looked to see how she was she had fluid coming out of her nose to 5 mills. in the bucket he told us if it went to three max she would be touch and go he pulled out 5. Honey looked very depressed and sorry for herself and had given up eating she made the choice easier for us because i always said the day Honey gave up eating would be the day she is put down she lived for her food. The vet said you don't really have a choice but gave us some time to think about and agreed to come back at five because i was still expected to do my job and everyone said well you gave her a good life she was 27 i had her for 24 years most of our yard were coming over to say goodbye or were in tears i feel guilty because my dad, husband and friend went with her to be put down and the only one able to help was my friend as within a few minutes my husband had broken down my dad couldn't see because he was in tears i just wish i could have had the guts to be with her to the bitter end but even the vet advised me to stay with my mum in the stable it is the worst thing to ever happen my whole world is turned upside down from being a priviliged horse owner with the best horse in the world to nothing no more up the yard morning and evening being whinned at for being late. I shouldn't say this really because i have a wonderful husband daughter and mum and dad and dog and cat but i still wish i could feel the soft dun ears and long muzzle shoving me every day.