My beautiful moggie Tabitha had five gorgeous fur babies nearly nine weeks ago. I have decided to keep two and my best friend is having two which is wonderful as I will still see them loads, will have them when he goes on holiday and will be able to watch them growing up. That left one little girl.

I didn't want her going to someone I don't know and I won't advertise or sell them. The friend who was going to have her lost her husband and so will have to work full-time and has got a grown rescue cat instead.

My neighbour's daughter (C) has now said she would like the kitten. She lives with her partner in a large house which is on a busy road. She already has a five month old pedigree cat (not sure what type, although I have met him) who is an indoor cat who goes out on a harness. Archie (the kitten) is lonely as he is left alone while they work and so the idea is that my kitten is a friend and playmate for Archie.

I know that I have to let my fur babies go - there is no way I can keep three - I would have eight cats then and finances are a bit of an issue - I work six days and two evenings as it is - but my pets are worth it I just feel so awful. It's like I am rejecting one of them. She will be so confused tomorrow evening in a strange house away from her Mum, siblings, familiar surroundings and me. I feel like some sort of monster putting her through that. I wish Tabitha had had four kittens or even six - it's just letting one go out into the world alone that feels awful.

I know that many of you have litters often and wondered how you cope when they leave you? I am not a breeder and haven't had a litter for 13 years as my other cats have all been spayed/neutered. Tabitha has been spayed now as I didn't want her to have any more kittens, lovely though they are.

I have made C promise that if things don't work out she will let me have the kitten back and that I will take her back at any age as I never want her to end up in a rescue. When C and her partner go away my neighbour looks after Archie so I know I will see the kitten again at some point. As far as I know it seems like a good forever home as Archie is loved and well cared for.

I'm just dreading saying goodbye to her. I hadn't realised how hard it would be.

Oh lumpy, she will probably blossom and come on even more away from her siblings and whilst your still blowing ya nose-she'll be like lumpy whoGive her a blanket with all your home smells on and a few toys and some used litter from her tray at yours-it will make it easier for her to adjust,as for coping with waving tara-when you get updates,calls and pics and you see how spoilt they are and how devoted and well trained theeir new slaves are and happy to be-you know you did the right thingA bit like leaving your child in the classroom on their first ever day at school