Its not that I didn't want to go to college because I would have loved to! I went for the interview and everything was ok. I'd have been doing an ND in animal welfare so, ideal for me really and its the nearest college that does animal welfare and animal care. It was the journey there that would have thrown me completely because I have a phobia of buses, trains, and transport alike. I'll go on trains with my mum but no one else. And buses with anyone else who I trust basically, just not on my own. Also I would have had to travel about 45+ minutes on one bus from the village I live in to a huge city, then catch another bus for another 45+ minute ride and it just wouldn't be practical for me. I wouldn't have been able to do all that on my own and it sounds like nothing to most people but to me it was a massive, massive deal.

A job on the other hand.. well I want to work somewhere near me, its a garden centre and also house pets there and theres a café and book store too. I've sent up to about 3 letters, also my brother and mum have and none of us have been called back, written back to so we're a little disgusted by that and have given up. Its the only place near enough I could bike to within 15/20 minutes and feel good about working there. Its a busy, lively place with friendly, helpful staff, even though yea, they didn't even contact us back to say we didn't get called in to work there, but I still love it there.

I have things to keep me busy during the day, theres always something to do here for me. I have cages to clean out now anyway.