I am really sorry to read about the loss of your beloved dog and your fears for Fluffy's health.

I know the Blue Cross run a telephone bereavement support service - I don't know if that is the one you tried and didn't find helpful.

Amazon do sell second hand books, some for only a penny, but you do have to pay the postage. I often buy books this way.

I've also found an e-mail support service for those preparing to lose a fur child to Rainbow Bridge. I don't know if you would find this helps at all? Preparing for Pet Loss Support Programme

Thinking of you and Fluffy.

Run Free at the Bridge Maxi.