Im so sorry, i dont know what to say bless you both for looking after beanie so well, i had to have my GSD put to sleep from cancer, and i had an injection to make her dopey, then i held her till she had the main injection and i still held her until my oh pulled me off her, i couldnt let go, so i really feel in my heart for you and your wife, its a dam horrible thing to have to do, and i cant understand a vet that would be so uncaring. my thoughts are with you all .