It did feel rushed and i guess in my own head i thought things would be great and the cat would be coming home all better or at least on the road to recovery. I know from reading up on the matter kidney failure happens a lot in older cats but it's still such a shock because it's like you just don't get to spend any more time with him and you have to make a decision and then he is gone.

I know as a human if i was terminal and suffering i would also want to end my life but he had the absolute cutest face and was very intelligent.

Here is a pic of him sprawled out on the bed very happy and sleeping from just a few months back.

http://img35.imageshack.us/i/ourcat.jpg/


I also wonder if i made the right decision to have him cremated. My gut wonders if i will really get him back or someone else's pet. I wonder if i should have brought him home and buried him in the garden but at the time i was just so down about the whole thing and cremation seemed a good way to honour the memory of a loved pet as i can sprinkle his ashes high on some hills.