He was sleeping a lot the last few days and vomiting and slight diarrorea from it's back passage which smelt really bad but on the bus journey over he seemed to actually perk up a little and kept miaowing because he was afraid of being in the cat box as he had never been caged in his life. I kept having to stroke him and reassure him he would be better once we reached the vet and i feel i have let my cat which was part of the family down.

I know some people say you shouldn't get too emotional and it's just an animal but i don't see it like that and i feel a huge loss and i will miss him jumping on my lap looking for affection and purring when he wants out and in. I had a few tears in my eyes when the news was broke to me in the vets surgery and i cried when i left the place. Maybe if they had just done blood tests and reached the same conclusion i would feel a little better and i guess i'm feeling maybe i have let my pet down by allowing him to be put to sleep.

Yes he was very tired looking and obviously ill but it has come on so suddenly. On Tuesday he was eating and on my lap and fairly energetic. It's only the last two days his condition detiorated badly. I wish the vet had done some blood tests for poisoning or diabetes just to rule it out but i just didn't have the knowledge at hand in the surgery to counter anything the vet said. Now i'm reading this popular page about chronic renal failure and acute renal failure in cats and it says blood tests should be carried out as the symptons can match diabetes. Then i googled another page and it says blood tests should be carried out and that some vets are old fashioned and not keeping up to date with latest possible treatments for kidney failure.

I did not know the vet and have never been in the surgery before.

I guess i don't know if the cat was really ill as in terminal as the vet suggested or had just been somewhere where poison had been laid or was constipated or was coming down with diabetes. It was a shock to get such a conclusive answer as kidney failure as i wasn't expecting it. I really wish so much i could turn the clock back and ask for blood tests. I just feel something in my bones felt wrong about the vet taking such a quick decision and it was literally within minutes he came up with his diagnosis.

Maybe i just feel i should have got the blood tests and ruled out the possibility of saving him. We had a dog many years back who suffered kidney failure and we didn't put him to sleep and he died suffering although fighting to the end.